Expectations....are like double edged swords.
People expect great things out of you and you must deliver or you will fail them but most of all fail the the thought of your own greatness. And that's the worst shit ever. Disappointing your own self. I have been down that road, I fear to ever go there again.
Then if people expects less of you. Look down on you. Being all condescending to you then the more you want to succeed. Let's say circumstance did not let you succeed however, you will again be disappointed in yourself. And like I say, that's the worst shit ever.
I mean, expectations are not that...good. People have been disappointed over and over again by their expectations for some things or some people.
But then if you expect something a certain way and it did come out that certain way then things are pleasant but are somewhat mundane. And mundane is also not good.
So why do people kept on having expectations when all they do is screw us over anyways? Why do I keep on having expectations? Even when I know whatever it is, its not gonna live up to my expectations of it anyways....
So what is it then? A crazy mind game people just wanna play? A combination of both hope and faith that we gave another name? A need for a little masochism?
I need to know. I always need to know about those that are screwing with me. And this time around its expectations.