Finals is coming up on the 26th. The dateline for my on-going project is on the 18th and we still have lots of things to do. Not including all the assignments and presentation that I have yet to get done and over with. Loads off stuff.
Stress. Anxiety. Fatigue. Self-doubt.
Its all taking its toll.
And did I mentioned that the Penang trip is cancelled? Its been decided for a while but I didn't mentioned it coz I thought we could reschedule. But we couldn't. And now its cancelled. Sad now. So lets add that to the list.
Stress. Anxiety. Fatigue. Self-doubt. Sadness.
I am sooo tired these days, so tired. I have the energy level of a koala and this koala have to do a shitload of stuff. Plus, lately this blogging thing have not been that much fun anymore. Its no longer something that I 'want' to do but now it feels like something that I 'have to' do. And when 'want' becomes 'have to', the party stops. When I started this whole blog, it was for a class assignment. Responsible journalism. Which basically me talking shit bout the government for the first 11 entries. Then I just continued to blog coz its an outlet for my bitching. Then the readers come and found the bitching to be entertaining.
Seeing the numbers of readers jump up on my site meter rocked my world. Its like a "HAHAHA!! Bitches I have readers!" moment. But as of late I realise that my blogging isnt about me blogging or bitching anymore. Its more like I want to be entertaining. And if you find yourself trying to be entertaining then you know you are NOT entertaining.
No I am not saying its going to be hiatus. I'm saying there be less posting. At least until after my finals is done. That's in May. I will be around just not as much. I realise that I would lose readers but when I was blogging for me, that shit should not have mattered.